Following my previous post, well, this couple getting interesting. KSE caught on scandal with SHJ. Although both of them denied that they had relationship, but because the PR department of both agencies seems so clueless how to handle this crisis, it definitely went to wrong way. SE's agency kept changing the story and SHJ's agency's words also didn't do any good to her. Seriously, they have to learn from Guiliana Rancid's scandal recently. This is a good quote from article about Guiliana's art of apology, "a public apology works best when all elements are in alignment and no detail has been left unturned. “Every aspect must be scrutinized from where the apology will take place, to the celebrity’s choice of attire, their use of mannerisms, tone of voice, body language and, most importantly their choice of words,” she says. “We have to believe 100 percent that they are genuinely remorseful. No signs should indicate otherwise or reveal any shadow of doubt.” The expert said,"nailing a celebrity apology is almost formulaic. They need to be done as quickly and as seamlessly as possible. “In order to ensure the most successful outcome, it is a three part process,” she says. “One, take full responsibility. Two, offer a complete explanation for the actions. And three, set a plan going forward to avoid future mistakes.” When WGM aired the apology scene of KSE,I really wondered how it's going to be, how JL's going to react with all this fiasco. And behold, JL's really played his part very well - in terms of - politically correct all answers and reactions, except when he said,"Whatever!". With KSE's though, I have some doubts, because her story didn't match with her agency's said, and after that ep aired, her agency added up another explanation which I think it's unnecessary. JL really try his best to protect WGM and KSE's, because he feels that he owe them part of his fame now. But KSE, well, I feel now she gather plenty of new haters, partly because of her careless remarks and scandal. I think with WGM went through right now, getting rid old couples, replaced with new ones and then PD will replace this couple so that the fantasy concept won't be destroyed. I checked with Sambian symbol of JL's and what he needs to focus on,and when I checked, I surprised that it really accurate for all his current situation now. This is not his sun, but his retrogate planet. For birth date, I use one year before his official date, because I suspect he lied his birthday year (>.<) Gemini 13 Numerology : 73 Sabian Symbol : A great musician at his piano Marc Edmund Jones Key Word : Achievement Jane Ridder - Patrick Healing Body Point : Pulmonary veins Crystal Element : Cinnabar Opal Expression : Cinnabar Opal contains mercury sulphide that accentuates this red opal. Spiritually, Cinnabar Opal channels universal principles to raise and harmonize the collective consciousness. Message : Alchemical transmutation, artistic sound, a path for emotional release. Sun Focus : You have refined communication skills; music in particular provides happiness and comfort for you. Affirmation : I am grateful for the music in my life; it gives me great joy. I haven't yet checked SE's Sabian symbol. I will do it when I have free time.





It's been a while I haven't blogging, because I don't know what should I write about. But now, yeah...I'm happy because I'm following WGM - LTE Couple. It's Korean reality marriage show starring Song Jae Rim and Kim So Eun. I noticed Kim So Eun from the k-drama "The Man who can't get married", while Song Jae Rim - I just remember him that he starred Oh My School before ( I only followed that show for awhile). The dynamic of this couple is just so cute and really worth to watch. They give a real vibe of couple in real life, especially the guy. He is so cheesy,funny,and red hot blooded namja, not mentioning that he is also well quipped. It's like a perfect guy. And seriously this guy raise the bar for all the bf/husband in Korea or even in the world. The girl, well, since she is also very famous and younger than the guy, she is quite cautious around him. She's still thinking whether this guy is real or not or perhaps he just those romantic cheesy things for the program only. It's definitely push-pull condition. I'm still wait and see for their development. Chemistry wise, it's 100% yes, but for becoming a real life couple there's 50%-50% chance for that. Jae Rim perhaps he will definitely pursue the girl, but the girl,well, let's say that she's on hold because she's thinking about lots of perfectly and ideal life. The only thing that I'm worry that what if the guy is bored of this push pull condition? What will this couple do? Because obviously the guy is living in the fast pace of showing everything to the girl while the girl is just slow to show it and she's trying to uplevel him in certain ways. I really can't wait to watch their interaction, sun star Virgo and Aquarius will definitely fun to watch.





Suddenly, I just really want to blog, perhaps to release all the depression and emotions inside me. I acknowledge that yes, I still feel depress of Chris's lost. I crave for his attention and hugging for me, but I can't get that. So, to kill all those feelings sometimes I play games in my Notes, or studying astrology - trying to understand the terms in astrology + traditional ways. I do feel that by studying traditional astrology, I gain insight for myself because I use my own natal chart. Other problems that I have, is money. Money, I think, is the most overrated items in the world. Sometimes, I feel that I have enough money for time being, but mostly not. The inflation in here is just so bad. Enough rambling and rats for now. Hopefully, I'm able to lift up my mood till tonight.





It's been a while for me to write down in this blog. So many things happened in my life, and yet I feel I don't have time to write it down and reflected. Part of me feels that I still miss him and yet I know I should not burden myself, my friends and my family for these feelings. Last year I went to Singapore with my dad and had couraged to contact his brother and family to visit him. When I came there I felt sad and overwhelmed. I couldn't pray appropriately and said whatever I wanted to say to him. At the end of the meeting, his mother said that I'm a good person for her son. It just made me so guilty and so sad, because I felt that in some way I made her son a dishonest and covered up a lots of dark secret. I don't want to stuck in the past, and yet somehow I feel more lonely and stuck up in the past than ever. I don't feel into depression yet, but well, it's hard and I should make my body and mind to be busy and not thinking in negative way. Enough is enough and future is should be reached well.

It's done...I close my love chapter with Willsen. 6 months with love but apparently he doesn't want me...so yeah, I'd rather make myself like a doll~ luring guys with looks~
although my love to him isn't die yet.
So,yeah...Gambatte!!!!
the goal is to make myself like a doll~~ sexy,hot,pretty doll, till guys drooling :P





Last night until now, I fight with Willsen. It's terrible and yet it just broke my heart. I don't know what to do and what to answer. I can't push him, just let it flow.
I pray to Lord so that whatever happens, if there is miracle ( which I believe), it will happen.
I'm happy that I still have family that care for me :)
So yeah, happy birthday for me!