I'm very tired

Today I supposed to have guests at my house,
but they cancelled it.
So I met them at Sim Lim Square.
Then when I want to go home via bukit batok,the gate can't open...
Because I bought the standard ticket till Jurong East.
So I went to Jurong East, took taxi all way back to my home.

I want the MOTOROLA E680!!

Anyway,I will study now~








Last night at the end I drunk,
till now I still got hangover.
And yeah I puked a lot till around 2.30 am.
Then I slept.

Maggie even worst,
She told me she puked till 7 am >.<

Now my stomach so growling.
Hope I won't puke again.

Tomorrow my friends will come here,
till monday.

But yesterday so shiok ya,
Ate 20+ dimsum plate for two persons.
Till the waitress asked Maggie whether we can finish it or not >.<
At the end yeah we can finish it all >.<

Then we went to k-ster chinatown.
From 4 pm till 1 + am.
Drink like tomorrow nothin happened.

Anyway Davis, thank u so much of yesterday.
Sorry i didn't reply ur message coz my hp low batt,
also I can't speak anymore.

Anyway I don't want to eat dimsum again~
Perhaps till next month? >.<








In past 2 days,
I've got so much happiness,sadness and stress.

For Davis,
Thank's alot, you brighter my day.
Your rose still in good condition :).
I really enjoyed every moment when I was with you.

For Esther,
I miss ya~ please submit ur latest picture ahaha :x.

On 24th Nov, actually I met Wenjie aka KukuMau for breakfast.
I asked ShaoYun whether he wanted to join or not, but he didn't want to meet.
Too bad.
He's so cute hehehe.
After that I walked around hillview avenue for morning stroll.

Tomorrow I don't know whether I want to meet my friend or not for watching movie.
But surely this Friday, I will eat dim sum.
Long time haven't eaten that.>.<"

Today I had tiff again *sigh*
I really don't know how to say and how to handle again.
Should I just keep my mouth quiet or I talk everything in my mind?
Because I know his character, that's why I keep everything inside my heart.
Not I'm being fake or what, but different people ~ different approaches.

Anyway, I think I won't touch my other blog.

I love you guys.







oh well tonite I won't online.
because I need to study.
next week maybe I will online.

I miss my dear Esther.
and my family too.

Davis,
sorry if I don't reply ur sms much.
give me some space okay.

I want to be alone now.



I just came back from cineleisure orchard,watched the incredibles.
It's very cute movie, especially the baby part ^^.
The baby power so cute~ he become a monster or devil kinda like that hahaha.
And believe me, this movie much much better than shark tale.
This movie is worth if you want to watch 2 times ^^.

Actually today I went out with amanda aka TnGz and maggie.
We went shopped at far east plaza and then walked along orchard road to the Heeren shop.
Oh yeah, we had dinner at Thai resto at Far East, very yummy and if you calculate, 1 person only $11.30,with 4 dishes.
Quite cheap and very full.

Because the movie started 12.20 am, we decided that chatted at Lips cafe, for about 2 hours.
Oh yeah, almost forgot, we took pictures from neoprints^^.
Maybe tomorrow I will scan and I will put it in my another blog, as usual.

So tired.

Anyway, tomorrow I suppose to meet my friend at my house, but I cancel it because I'm very tired.
I also haven't finished cleaning my house.
I've already told him that I cancelled it.

Night night all.












I really don't know what should I write or what should I say to you.
Now I'm like in the middle of the road, don't know which way to go.

I like you alot,
And your calls and sms makes my day brighter and better.
I just want to take it slowly.
Slowly to know you better.
Just give me time to know you.
Be patient,because good things will not come in a fast way :).

Anyway,
My baby Lonel is died today.
When I saw it,he's already angel >.<
Now I've got baby Misha.
It's a girl and hope that she can have another baby again.

I changed my blog skin to christmas edition.
I luv christmas alot and I hope I can spend it with the person that I love.

Davis,
take a good care of yourself,
don't be so sad,
what I said today is just a reminder for you.

Esther,
I love you and I miss you...

Lily da jie,
I also miss you~

For everybody,
Jia you!!!!!









I let it go, at last.
Now I feel so much happier and better.
After I talked with Davis on the phone.
It makes me realize that maybe that love is not really that hurt.
I'll give chance to myself about that.

For somebody that I respected so much,
thank you for everything.
I let it go by sending you e-card.
Hope that it will heal through time.

Anyway, my tamagotchi now in second generation.
The baby girl " Jai" already dead 2 days ago.
Now the son "Lonel" will accompany my days.

I still online actually, but I won't open my MiRC and MSN..only YM and IE.
Rewards for myself after I finish my study.

I realize it now,
If love already in front of your eyes, why you shouldn't take it?
I like him but maybe slowly now I love him.
That makes me wondering,
Am I really that fast to love someone?
I still need a lot of times to know him more and more.
Coz I'm afraid that I will make wrong decision that perhaps I will regret it,again.











I'll take leave till 30 Nov, so please if you have anything just sms me or give me call okay.
I also won't be at mIRC and MSN ...so either u leave me msg at my blog (this one) or as I suggest u sms or call ^^.
So sorry troubled u all because well, I feel so dump and not in a good mood.
Maybe because yesterday.

Oh well,that's my characters.
If I love the person, surely I will give in.
If I'm not love you, why I allowed you to enter my life ?
I've shared you the important things of my life, and shameful of me..you just same like other guys.
Your changed behaviour and everything, well, that's your stand.
And I have my own stand too.

My principle is I will do it if I like the person and I love that person.
But then from what you said, now I feel like I'm a cheap girl.
I'm not decent girl.
Did I wrong interpret you attitude and behaviour in my place?
Now you said everything like that...
Nothing that I can say.






I feel I want to cry now.
I like him a lot and I mean everything what I said to him.
I love him.
But now I feel like I'm a cheap girl.
I really feel so stupid now.

I won't online till I don't know..
Perhaps one week or one month ?
Yeah.

DON'T LOOK FOR ME..
I'LL BE OKAY...








My sunday,
Well, in the afternoon I spent it with host at SPiNX, some with dance tracks, some with a slow tracks.
Then, me and koka went to Serangoon for eating at Yannie's place.
Her mum's cooking quite nice :)
After that we went to Spinner's, only drunk one glass of Killkenny then we left.
We changed venue to K-ster Chinatown.
We sang,drunk and ate the titbits.
Actually we ordered each of us one glass of Killkenny, but then got one free jug of beers because Maggie's friend jio us.
After that we still ordered coctails ehehe.

Davis, thank you very much for you concern yesterday ^^.
Don't worry, I know when I high, I will stop drink.
I know my level of high ^^
I don't like see people force theirselves to drink and at the end they ended up with puking a lot...yuckz..disguisting..
And usually that's quite impossible because yesterday only drink a little bit :)

Esther~~ ni zhai na li?? >.< -> Wo de Esther, she's goin to Batam now.
I hope she's okay.
If not then I feel I'm responsible for her.
She said she will back untill thursday.

My feeling now, I really don't know.
It's too soon for me to say I love you or accept somebody right now.
I only know u for a few months so I want really careful now.
Just be patient, and it will turn everything okay ^^.













Friday,
I managed myself to host jazz session today at SPiNX.
Although I don't prepare for everything,but I somehow managed it.
Then I went out for dinner with Davis.
We ate at Marche and it's quite nice.
Long time I haven't come there.
Then I exchanged my Esprit card to the new one.
And I got 30% off for all items there!!
After that we went to Cineleisure.
We watched The Forgotten.
The movie itself it's not scary,but some scenes can make u jumpy.
And somehow the movie can make u feel so sleepy.
But if you think again, you will feel that actually that's funny and weird. ^^
While we waited for the movie started, we walked along orchard road.
Went inside Border's and saw around.
Then went back to cineleisure.
After that we went home.

Now I feel so tired, I want to sleep.
Da jie...don't worry about me okay :)

For Davis: thank u for everything ^^.







Today * revised : Thursday ^^* I met Esther, Alpha and Caren at Plaza Singapura.
Then after that we went to Marina South for BBQ.
We met Dreamz and CozyDevil at Plaza Singapura and Marina South.
I went out from 10.30 am till 11.00 pm.

Well, I talked a lot with Esther about things... but mostly about SPiNX people
Hope that won't make her sad~~

Anyway I'm broke now~~

* OK i slept around 5 am today because after I came back home Qing`` asked me to conference via Skype, with teck,^WM^,Enotsol and Alpha.
After that I talked with Alpha` about SPiNX.
He gave me alot of good tips what to talk when we host,such as talk about horoscope,news,opinion,etc.
And then we talked also about the Old Sjs and New Sjs.
Since Dolcebaby and [L]ynn is back to our team.
And KleoZy also asked my opinion about her.
She's very good and she understand her music flow very well.
If the standard of SPiNX like this, I don't think that I'm capable and New Sjs too.
But I try my best ^^.
Anyway,now I know that there's difference between Old Sjs and New Sjs.
And this may cause the New Sjs alot of pressure.
But for me,as long as you enjoy yourself and love hosting so much, why you should feel so stressful?
New Sjs got tendency that they more think about listeners and listener's peak.
This actually good but you must control that.
And for me, I better don't see the listener's peak.
I will nervous and feel demoralized if I see the listener's peak.

Then at the same time I talked with my da jie, Lily.
Lily da jie is a broadcaster also, in fact she's chinese broadcaster.
In real life and also Internet Radio.

She gave me alot of tips how to talk and how to handle the listeners.
Also about how to be yourself and at the same time have fun about that.
I hope I can practise that well.

And tonight I will go dinner with Davis.

















Sorry I didn't post for quite few days due to I'm busy study.
Last week I hosted, I'm very happy that I can get 51 listeners!!
and today I host, I got 42!!! yay...getting better and better..:)
I dunno how come suddenly a lot of people listening to my hosting.

Tomorrow I'll go to Plaza Singapura to watch movie with Esther and Alpha.
I feel today I'm quite tired and a bit sad.
Maybe because one of my friend, calvin, is sad.
He's got problem with his friend or who i don't know..then suddenly he sms me said that he can't listen to my host coz he's still at beach. *hugz yandao*
And Davis also tired and dissappointed of his work today.
Esther also sad *hugz esther darling*
Actually this afternoon when I talk with Esther on MSN I feel I wanna cry already but I still can tahan it.*sob*
Most of my friends around me are sad.*Sigh*
And I already don't have any mood to host actually.
Because I don't know what song should I play.
But after I play christmas song, I was a bit relieved and enjoyed myself then.
Then Breezy77 sabo me ahhaa, actually I've already known her plan..but then I must read all the 133 nicks at #spinx.it's like ...tired sia >.<
I hope all my friends are okay right now.
And Happy Deepavali~~

My baby girl Jai is 6 years old today.
Already teenager ^^

I'm still waiting for my bncs...duhz
I need it asap

Now i still review everything...

I feel I wanna hug somebody,
but my hand can't reach him.

I miss you and I love you
It's just our path never crossed
to be together

*Ai de dai jia*







Oh well, I haven't blogged for quite sometimes.
So,my stories are...
Yesterday, I mean Friday, I met a guy that I know from Internet,because I already promised him for quite sometimes but I never turned up.
So yeah I met him, we had dinner at Bukit timah hawker centre.
We only shared one carrot cake and drank sugar cane.
After that we went home.
And today- I mean Saturday-, I met another friend.
I accompanied him to go to toys r us and then we watched Shark Tale at Lido.
Shark Tale very funny, I always laugh.
Actually he want to watch horror movie,but I don't want.
At toys r us I bought tamagotchi..yeah! I called it Jai eventhough it's gal :)
I think he-the indonesian guy- interested with me.
But I only think him as my good friend since I don't know him quite well.
Anyway I still can't forget him.
He is too good for me.
But then my attitude to him really made him pissed off.
I try my best, but I don't know.

I really laugh when I saw the new structure.Hope that everybody are happy with new structure.And really, I think right now there's distance between me and him because of the office thingy. If I can help surely I will help him,but everybody suspect that he teamed up with that gal and I know that to certain extent, yes he believed her. I don't want him out of the office, but seems like everybody want to get rid of him and her. If her, I don't mind since her attitude like that. But if him get rid too, I don't want. His intention only he's doing his job, why everybody don't like it? Everybody seems so bother with access thingy, what's good about it? The more you have the access the more headache that you get.And I also know that a lot of people jealous with him because he's newcomer and so fast he got 499 access - well in dalnet we called it SOP/access founder -. And this people, really siao arh. I also think that the meeting actually is like a support for md. Other than that, I don't really see the things since like everybody agree to what he said. I can't say anything because I'm not one of the directors, I only an sj there.But, I enjoyed the foods and met new people hehehe :)

I sleep now.Sleepy.
And hungry.















It's a hard day for me.
It just like somebody dropped you a bomb out of sudden,
Without you realize it.

Then,
It left you only pain.
Emotionally pain now.

Lucky I have friends that give me courage
And I still have a lot of things to think

I still regard you as my good and best friends
But it's your choice now.

My promise to you, I'll keep it.
I won't broke it.

Next month is my exam
Hope I can pass it
With flying colours.