tidying up my emotions...saying to myself
the black, the white.. are not around..
the wind, the dream.. the wind extinguished my dream
tidying up my emotions...to let the angels hear...
the black.. the white.. are not around..
the wind.. the dream.. the wind blew into my dream..
helpless to hold tight.. yet sad when holding it..
sometimes i remember i love you..

i want to pursue but i can't muster the courage
the black and white in my heart.. helpless to approach.. guess your heart
where will you be tonight
the wind outside rose.. it started to drizzle.. the black and white showing in my heart (the showing... the showing)

i'm helpless to find my true love... sorry me can only think of a blank
i can't find a reason to get close... and can only keep my mouth closed...
a quiet me guards at the window.. savouring the loneliness..
helpless to prove.. but hope you believe.. there's a fool who's thinking of you
thinking of us meeting at the stairs.. the black and white showing in my heart..






my dad still in hospital now.
suppose to be 2 days ago he discarged, but then his mouth got problem, so he must go for therapy.

anyway i'm thinking whether i should go back to indonesia for this CNY or not.

haiz...







kimi ga waratta boku mo tsurarete waratta
utsushikagami mitai da kimi wa boku no
tomodachikimi ga okotta boku mo makezu ni okotta
kodomo no kenka mitai da kimi wa boku no tomodachi

You laughed & I joined in the laughter too
Like reflections in the mirror, you're my friend
You were mad, I also got mad without giving up
It seems like a kids' fight, you're my friend

boku ga sabishii toki wa ato sukoshi tsukiatte
umaku hanashi wo kiite kurenai ka
kimi no koe dake ga kokoro wo karuku suru
tada aidzuchi wo utte kureru dake de

When I'm lonely, keep me company a little longer
Won't you listen closely to what I say?
Only your voice eases my soul just by making sounds that you're listening

hanarete itemo zutto
(whenever you feel alone)
mune no naka ni iru yo

Even if we're apart, you'll always be in my heart

kimi ga naiteta boku mo nakisou ni natta
dakedo koraete waratta genki dase yo to waratta

You were crying, I also seemed to be crying
But stifled my laughter; "Cheer up," I laughed

kimi ga sabishii toki wa itsu datte tondeku yo
umaku kotoba kamitsukaranai keredo
boku no koe ga kimi no kokoro wo iyasu nara
tada aidzuchi wo utsu dake demo ii kai?

When you're lonely, I'll go quickly to you at any time
I won't snap at your words, but
If my voice heals your heart,
Is it ok even if I just make sounds that indicate that I'm listening?

(that's what friends are for
always be your side)

sabishii toki wa ato sukoshi tsukiatte
umaku hanashi wo kiite kurenai ka
kimi no koe dake ga kokoro wo karuku suru
tada aidzuchi wo utte kureru dake de

When it's lonely, keep me company a little longer
Won't you listen closely to what I say?
Only your voice eases my soul just by making sounds that you're listening

kimi ga inai to boku wa hontou ni komaru
tsumarisou iu koto da kimi wa boku no tomodachi

When you're not here, I'm really in a bind
It's something that I'm choked up to say: you're my friend







today my dad went to hospital becoz of ear's herpes...very sad...
after i talked wif my mum i cried.
then i went out for dinner with my friendz at marche.

anyway, friday nite i went to koka's place wif my friend.
then i drank absolute vanilla wif sprite...so nice!

the rest ....i forgot :p

c ya...






today I went out wif maggie from 10.30 am till 5.30 pm.
so tired!
supposed not to buy anythin but at the end we both bought 1 nice black sweater..not really sweater actually but well it quite nice.
first stop was SP building, ate breakfast at the food centre there. the kaya toast so nice and also wif soft boiled eggs~ yumm!
after tat went to Heeren shop..took picz and c around.
then we went to paragon...tang....saw the eyebrow plucker guy infront of tang
c around far east..mango ... at the end went to isetan supermarket and isetan...
then to wheelock plaza - borders- only to check map lolx..
had lunch at BK and then went to orange grove road..too bad the service centre already closed.
so we went to esprit..heading back to wisma atria...then to the hmv bus stop...
maggie went to her office..i went home

i scanned the picz...u can see it below ^^















yesterday i went to esther bday party...quite nice! i like the cake :)
met pplz from CHC, her school friends, her irc friends, Dante and her bf :)

today had dinner wif Roy at koufu westmall.
as usual, he is crappy ahaha :p
talked with him made me a bit relieved.
after that he accompanied me to shop at shop n save.
I was looking for ginger...coz i want to make a glutinous ball dessert~ sigh~
perhaps i must go to giant or wet market to find ginger >.<

anyway, i think i won't be in any relationship soon~
yeah...
i still love my single statues.
and i can't bear to lose my freedom just like that.
but if i meet somebody that understand me enough,perhaps i will think bout it again.

what else arh...
oh yeah...don't judge people by their appearance ~! okok!

haiz...to have a boyfriend or not...
is it a choice or a chance?o.O

i just finished dl o2jam nx!
very nice ...:)
better than before ^^.
and i still got 400 points at e-games..dunno when it will be finish hohoho~

miss my baobei ~
hope he's okay.









tonite davis already in thailand,hope he'll be ok.
i dunno whether i should be sad or happy he's not around.
maybe i'm too care to him.
anyway,i still think that he can't forget his ex.
lucky for me that i never agree to be his gf->girlfriend,but still maintain to be goodfriend.

this coming Sunday i'm goin to Esther's bday party.
yesterday was her bday.
wish her the best.

thinking about friends and life,can't deny that there's alot of problems and when i see they can solve their problems,i'm very happy.

is it good to care your friends?
some people may say that too kepo and it will make situation worst.

another thought,the more you know people,the more problems will arise.
is this true?
in business,they taught that better for you to know more people coz can make your business bigger.
but once you know them personally,the problems will rise from there.

sigh...now i remember Jeff.
2 days ago i chat with him.
surprisingly,he still wait for my answer.
i thought i've already gave him my answer,but at the end he still waiting for my answer.
never ending story for love.
yeah.
next week i'll meet him.
i'm afraid i'll break another person's heart.

now,better for me to focus myself in my study.
have a bf...maybe...i dun know,if i find a very good and nice guy, i'll think about it.
我 爱 你。but as a good friend,is it wrong? love and to be loved...i dun know what i do now is rite or wrong.

sigh...anyway,davis already arrived Thailand.
he sms me just now,happy that he's ok.

continue it next time~






oh well, I haven't updated my blog quite long time.
and perhaps you've been wondering where am I and what am I doing rite?
hmm,past few weeks I accompanied my uncle and my famz in here.
and also hunt some furnitures for my apartment, then cleaned up my hse too.

last year, I would say that the toughest time after I was in Sydney.
but at the end I'm happy coz I still have pplz tat I love and accompany me no matter how am I:)
Thanks God that you give me other opportunities for me for this year.

For whoever that I've hurt ur feelin, I'd like to say I'm sorry.
It's hard for me to say that to you.
But I must say that because I've already thought all the possibilities if I'm with you.
I won't tell ya the reasons why I said that because I don't want to change yourself.
No matter how hard u change urself just to suit me, at the end u will come back like tat...

sigh...I miss my famz already.